Don't know why, suddenly I am missing my long long months of being at home...Though I often regret whatever I do or not do in life, the phases of my life when I took a break from my career is which I always reviere...Though, sometimes it used to be very irritating with a 18/19 hours of non-stop work, yet the afternoons used to be really ravishing...
Be it marriage, child birth, settling my child to a school, the breaks sometimes pump out all my energies, irritated of which, I would seek for a kick start immediately...Morning hours as it is now that I am once again into job used to be in crisis and I would have never mind to have 10 hands taking care of every nuances by my hubby or Tinni...But just after both of them used to be out of sight, I immediately used to plug in to the net, listen all my favourite songs, which were a completely no-no in front of my hubby..Morning tea with a paper in hand in our tiny balcony used to be a pleasure moment for me...I could infact pass an hour or more but alas, when office is on, I cannot think of such things....Perhaps, this is why reading news on paper has never been my cup of tea...for I always sought to go for details...Innovative cooking spending a lot of time preparing all delicacies is wht I always cherish, though on weekdays, I am always in a hurry of running down time..EVen on week-ends, as the day begans late, I ususally get to spend a little time over in the kitchen...
I always loved sports, beauty therapies, yoga, meditation, cooking good food and watching out movies, but in my schedule, I can enjoy none...I know that I would be able to rejoy all these in a span of a decade...but by then, will I really enjoy all these and would my body and mind be in a shape to enjoy all these activities...Every phase brings a hell lot of conditions along with it...
Somewhere, somehow down the lane, I really want to spend some time alone, completely alone and isolated, but the moment, I am out of the office compound, my mind becomes out of control and it jumps to all the nitty gritty of life, be it tinni, be it my hubby or be it any other activities on this earth...
Yesterday, I have spoken with one of the person connected with SGI and I really want to join that organization, for I know that I cannot kill all my desires...I know that people whom I owe a lot, who are most precious in my life will take hardly any time to completely erase my memory from their mind, once I am no more...Also, I know that to these people surrounding me, I hardly matter, and I hardly exist as an insignificant molecule ...I know that I am dumb, immatured and speak all non-sense whenever I open my mouth, but deep inside my heart, I hold no grudges for any being on this earth..GOd shower your blessings and enlighten me wid some wisdom ...Amen.......
Be it marriage, child birth, settling my child to a school, the breaks sometimes pump out all my energies, irritated of which, I would seek for a kick start immediately...Morning hours as it is now that I am once again into job used to be in crisis and I would have never mind to have 10 hands taking care of every nuances by my hubby or Tinni...But just after both of them used to be out of sight, I immediately used to plug in to the net, listen all my favourite songs, which were a completely no-no in front of my hubby..Morning tea with a paper in hand in our tiny balcony used to be a pleasure moment for me...I could infact pass an hour or more but alas, when office is on, I cannot think of such things....Perhaps, this is why reading news on paper has never been my cup of tea...for I always sought to go for details...Innovative cooking spending a lot of time preparing all delicacies is wht I always cherish, though on weekdays, I am always in a hurry of running down time..EVen on week-ends, as the day begans late, I ususally get to spend a little time over in the kitchen...
I always loved sports, beauty therapies, yoga, meditation, cooking good food and watching out movies, but in my schedule, I can enjoy none...I know that I would be able to rejoy all these in a span of a decade...but by then, will I really enjoy all these and would my body and mind be in a shape to enjoy all these activities...Every phase brings a hell lot of conditions along with it...
Somewhere, somehow down the lane, I really want to spend some time alone, completely alone and isolated, but the moment, I am out of the office compound, my mind becomes out of control and it jumps to all the nitty gritty of life, be it tinni, be it my hubby or be it any other activities on this earth...
Yesterday, I have spoken with one of the person connected with SGI and I really want to join that organization, for I know that I cannot kill all my desires...I know that people whom I owe a lot, who are most precious in my life will take hardly any time to completely erase my memory from their mind, once I am no more...Also, I know that to these people surrounding me, I hardly matter, and I hardly exist as an insignificant molecule ...I know that I am dumb, immatured and speak all non-sense whenever I open my mouth, but deep inside my heart, I hold no grudges for any being on this earth..GOd shower your blessings and enlighten me wid some wisdom ...Amen.......
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